Here I am back at square one in the blogosphere. Although, I think I had probably only gotten to square two and a half with my first blog…but no matter. I felt like I needed a fresh start. I wanted to call a ‘do over.’ Keeping up my other blog was becoming increasingly frustrating because there were so many things I wanted to say, but was afraid to. I would start a post and think, I can’t really write that because Steve’s mom reads. Or what if one of my old neighbors reads this and thinks…? It got to the point that I didn’t look forward to posting anymore and I was becoming bored with trying to come up with neutral topics to please everyone. Everyone except for myself, that is.
So I’m going to try this again. And this time I’m not going to shout my website name from the roof tops. I suppose it’s a little ironic that those closest to me are the ones I’m most concerned about learning what the deepest (sometimes darkest) corners of my mind hold. But I’m certain they wouldn’t understand that this is just a place for me to empty those cluttered corners, sweep out the dust, and open the curtains a bit to let the sunlight in. And I guess I don’t feel like I should have to explain myself.
47 Comments
May 5, 2009 at 11:59 pm
This is very exciting. I did get your last message. I thought I responded. I have to go back and check. I am very happy to have you writing again.
xoxo
May 6, 2009 at 12:56 am
I’m happy about it–I wasn’t sure if I should take the leap or not…
May 6, 2009 at 4:57 pm
Well this is a totally cool feature! I have never seen it before. WordPress is cool.
May 6, 2009 at 12:03 am
I have been struggling with this myself but I haven’t decided how to handle it yet. Good for you for making the jump to a brand new blog!
May 6, 2009 at 12:56 am
Thanks…we’ll see how it goes.
May 6, 2009 at 12:13 am
Christy!! Am I your first commenter? Congrats on your new digs. I’ve been toying with doing something similar. I totally get it.
May 6, 2009 at 12:55 am
Okay, I’m loving that I can reply to people…thanks, by the way. I’ll let you know how it goes and you can see if you want to give it a whirl.
May 6, 2009 at 12:19 am
You go girlfriend!! I am behind you *ALL* the way…patiently waiting for more ; }
May 6, 2009 at 12:54 am
Thanks, baby! I appreciate the support.
May 6, 2009 at 12:39 am
Good for you! I started a second, anonymous, blog but I’ve had a hard time keeping up with it. I want to keep Land of Bean for the reason I started it: keeping family and friends up to date, but I am constantly aware of the limitations. I’m excited to see what you’ll have to say now that the gloves are off!
May 6, 2009 at 12:54 am
It was hard to decide if I really wanted to do it or not, and I don’t know how much different it will be most of the time…but you know how it is when you have something a little more…raw to say and you can’t? Yeah, it’s like that.
May 6, 2009 at 12:45 am
It is totally understandable to want to be able to write what YOU want without worrying what people will think! (I’m so lucky my mother-in-law doesn’t speak English!!!)
Write away free and unfettered!
May 6, 2009 at 12:53 am
You are lucky! Maybe I should start speaking french or something?
May 6, 2009 at 2:19 am
Don’t do that because I don’t speak french. I *might* be able to understand, um, pig latin? That’s about it.
May 6, 2009 at 1:52 am
Love it!!!!!!!! I so would love to do this. I mean I have thought, how weird is it to say hi to my friend’s husband at the pet store. To only have him say killer post last night. I totaly never got why Suzy Q hated the GynO Dr. I can see why now. Oh, and how did your appointment go, everything ok? I have sooooo thought about starting over. Who knows, you inspire me Christy!
Hugs
May 6, 2009 at 2:37 am
Hey Christy, Looking forward to reading your new blog. Are you going to keep the old ones, or just tell your loved ones that you gave it all up? Anyway, I can understand this. One of the reasons I still haven’t gotten around to setting up my own blog is that I can’t decide just what kind of blog it would be. I sort of want a mix of personal and, for lack of a better word, academic. How open should I be, how much should I control who sees it, or do I want to attract as much attention as I can getand thereby risk the issues you are now facing… Anyway, good for you and happy writing!
May 6, 2009 at 11:15 am
You are wise to think about all that. I didn’t know anything about blogging and I just sort of jumped in. I thought it would be fun to exercise those writing muscles again and share the family stuff with well, family. But it didn’t occur to me that some things I eventually might want to write wouldn’t seem to fit…I would just say to be very careful who you choose to share your blog with if/when you do start it.
May 6, 2009 at 3:26 am
heh – good thing everyone that knows me knows I’m not neutral about very many things. Ok, I’m not really neutral about anything.
I do understand where you’re coming from though. Every time I meet someone new and they ask for my email address I ponder if I should just open the door wide and give them the bloggy email or give them the email in which I refer to my own heritage using a derogatory term. I kind of like it but oddly some take issue with it.
Are you keeping up the old one still or making a switch to this secret blog?
May 6, 2009 at 11:18 am
I guess neutral probably isn’t the best word…I wouldn’t say I feel like I have to be neutral in terms of my beliefs. It’s more about the more serious things that I might want to write about and not have to worry that someone who knows me in “real” life and doesn’t have that kind of access to my thoughts (generally) will think I’m going to slit my wrists or something.
I’ll keep the old one up for a while and then just maybe fade out.
May 6, 2009 at 4:03 am
Wow, that’s a big step! I totally understand where you’re coming from.
I’m not the kind of balls-out person who can just say whatever I think without a filter, but thankfully I haven’t yet gotten to a point where I feel choked by it.
Good luck keeping this separate from your everyday life, and enjoying your newfound freedom! I’ll update my blogroll accordingly.
May 6, 2009 at 11:23 am
I’m not sure things will change all that much–I mean, I am who I am. But there definitely things I left off the blog because of my concerns so, problem solved! I am making a page for my blogroll. I love that I can do that on Word Press–with a tab and everything!
May 6, 2009 at 4:28 am
Funny how a lot of people are in the same situation with their blog. I’m glad you decided to start another one and hope it works out the way you want it to. I won’t even tell Steve’s mom where to find you!
Miss you!!
May 6, 2009 at 11:25 am
If you tell Steve’s mom I will take all of your margarita paraphernalia! I miss you too.
May 6, 2009 at 4:37 am
And here I thought you were already telling us all the dirty laundry…can’t wait to see what’s been lurking in the deep dark recesses of that mind of yours, especially since you swept the cobwebs out. Nothin’ stoppin’ ya now sistah…spew the goods.
I’ll get the ball rolling by telling you my own deep dark secret…I have a facebook account that is TOTALLY fictional. I can say whatever I want to my 600 plus friends AND NO ONE KNOWS IT’S ME! I think this may be what it felt like to burn your bra back in the 60’s…minus that nasty skin on skin feeling that you get when the twins are all saggy…wait, was that TMI?
Egads…IT IS LIBERATING!
Good luck and way to go.
May 6, 2009 at 11:26 am
Ha! I love you…you’re a riot! Burn that bra, baby!
May 6, 2009 at 4:48 am
Thanks for letting me know about your new blog and I totally understand why – same reason I moved! Hope you have lots more fun with it. I am a slacker when it comes to my blog of late and I never have time to read anyone else’s as I am always so busy!
May 6, 2009 at 11:28 am
Oh, see I did not know that you moved sites…I thought you just stopped altogether!
May 6, 2009 at 6:04 am
i am SO excited for you. and i love all the comments you’ve already gotten. i love your clean new layout!! i love the books header. it’s like a new place to hang out.
love it. so happy for you. can’t wait to hear more! thanks for including me. i mean, not that you couldn’t include me. i’m just glad to be in the “circle”.
hugs and fake poo under your pillow,
yo
May 6, 2009 at 11:30 am
Awww…you’re definitely in (fake poo and all.) You my friend, are an inspiration to me. PS–I love the books header too! It’s my favorite!
May 6, 2009 at 11:36 am
This is going to be really good! Can’t wait to hear more from you!!!
May 6, 2009 at 12:01 pm
Good for you. I have thought about this, too. It’s scary to let our loved ones know who we “really” are sometimes. I look forward to your stories, insights, and experiences as always!
May 7, 2009 at 12:13 am
May 6, 2009 at 12:52 pm
I am so proud of you…This should be a place to express yourself…othewise, what’s the point??
Thank you for bringing me along…
May 7, 2009 at 12:13 am
Exactly! Thanks for coming along!
May 6, 2009 at 2:09 pm
i love do overs and am digging the new feel and look. i do believe you are starting a revolution. more, please!
xoxo
May 7, 2009 at 12:13 am
I love the look too (but somehow new always looks good doesn’t it?) I think Gloria Steinem types are better left to the revolutions…I’m just a regular girl trying to figure it all out.
May 6, 2009 at 7:42 pm
If only it were this easy to do “do overs” in real life (grade school do overs on the playground don’t count). I’m glad you’re back to writing again. I was missing not reading your new posts but I can totally understand why you made the change. There are many times I think things and then go “if they only knew what goes through my head…”
In an off note, did you keep your email address the same? The only reason why I ask is if any family members decide to do any google searches using your email address, eventually this blog might show up. I had a blog (briefly) and when I did a google search of my email address (who hasn’t googled themselves? Just me? O.k., I’m a narcissist then), my blog popped up. Just a thought (you may have already thought of it though).
Anyway, glad to see you’re back.
May 7, 2009 at 12:10 am
I did change my email address…but I didn’t think of that. Thanks for filling me in though b/c I don’t really know about all that stuff. I will keep an eye on it. Glad to have you here!
May 6, 2009 at 9:41 pm
Wow- been wondering where you’ve been! It’s very peaceful here! Hope it will keep away the “evil spirits”! Good Luck!
May 6, 2009 at 11:07 pm
I completely understand which is why I blog anonymously. Here’s to the do over and you can say whatever the fuck you want here. Woot!
May 7, 2009 at 12:16 am
Absolutely…I wish I had thought about everything long term when I started, but better late than never I suppose!
May 10, 2009 at 5:06 pm
Me too- I think I need to start over. My kids found my blog and now I feel like sensoring everything. Glad you found a pretty place to write
May 11, 2009 at 11:25 am
Your kids found your blog? Oh, no…and you’ve started over before haven’t you? That really sucks, but feeling censored makes it hard–you should do it!
May 10, 2009 at 11:49 pm
Get the real stuff out sister!! The so-called “dark side” is actually the light shining through! I’ll be checking you out!!!
May 11, 2009 at 11:26 am
You’re very kind…
June 5, 2009 at 11:09 pm
Do you have any idea how long I’ve been checking your other blog? I read everyday, and all of a sudden, your just not there any more! I thought you were having computer problems, or somehow the link got broken, or you DIED! I do understand why, and now that I’ve found you again, I’ll update my book marks. You’re forgiven. =)
June 6, 2009 at 12:44 am
Awww…I’m so sorry! I really tried to email everyone that I knew of that used to read! It wasn’t you guys I was feeling repressed by! How did I miss you? How did you find me? I’m glad you did…I really like my new place.
~Christy